I’ve been on a hiatus, obviously.
I’m still crossing my Rubicon. I’ve just been writing other things lately.
I was informally commissioned last year to compose a Mass for my parish. If you’re not Catholic (i.e. headed for hell) “composing a Mass” means that I set some of the weekly Mass prayers to music. Theoretically, that music coordinates together as a suite.
I enjoy composing music—creating new melodies and playing them with ad libbed accompaniment for myself. I’ll play in a stream of consciousness, or toy around with melodies or harmonies I’ve already written. Adding constraints to the process—existing lyrics that must be incorporated or limits on singable ranges—somehow paradoxically makes the process easier for me. An English writing analogy might be limiting a post to one hundred words, or writing a short story without using the letter “T.” I’m more engaged when solving a complex problem than I am writing with no constraints at all.
Notating music, on the other hand, is a royal pain in the patooty. I’m glad I was writing Rubicon before I started notating my Mass. Blog posting has made me practice editing, adjusting layouts and polishing my output for public consumption. In writing, the author strives to lead the reader to an idea through words, punctuation and paragraphs. In music notation, the composer attempts to recreate his performance through another performer by handing him or her a sheet of paper. Music notation, for me, has a lot more room for error than just writing words. As an amateur hack musician, I don’t know exactly what I’ve written until I play it. And I often don’t play what I’ve written, I play what’s in my head.
So I’ve been writing, rewriting, printing drafts and red-lining all summer long. The project is almost complete. My blog photographer Michelle Codarmaz-Booth created a fantastic cover for me. When the Mass is finished, I plan to offer it for free online. I’ve tried sending music to publishers before. My submissions had no result, other than pummeling my frail ego. Like most industries—writing, art, engineering, etc.—music publishing is not about talent or ability. It’s about who you know and nearly limitless perseverance.
When the Mass is finished, I’m still going to be busy in musician mode. I’m playing for a cousin’s wedding in October. I generally play weddings for our family. I’m very opinionated about it. But that’s another blog post. After that I have yet another mixed media project that will limit my blogging output.
So, although I’m not producing many blog posts, I should have some nearly tangible alternatives to show you soon.